Let’s just dive right into the free flowing thoughts running around in my head today (at goal marathon pace, of course.)
1.) I’m thinking about how I always avoid dealing with the logistics of marathons until I absolutely HAVE to.
I guess it’s a product of my nerves and feeling overwhelmed, but I will think a lot about how I’m NOT planning, taking up way more time and space in my head than it would take to actually plan.
Luckily, Adam is usually good about figuring out logistics when I’m overwhelmed, BUT, knowing that only makes me avoid it more. I rarely “outsource” for anything, and I can’t quite figure out why I do it for this. I’ve been training hard, I guess something has to give!
I’ll set my alarm for 2am and if someone else could please just place me at the start line, that would be lovely. But really, wouldn’t that be awesome? Oh, and also pick up my bib, lay out my race outfit, check the weather incessantly for the 2 weeks prior, give me a rundown of the course, and tell me where to look for you on the course so I can shove over my arm warmers and forget to say “hi.”
2.) I’m thinking about all the sleeping I’ll do in approximately 2.5 weeks.
Almost like the reverse of childbirth, right?
I know I’ve gone on about my lack of sleep several times on the blog, but lately it’s just been BAD! I don’t know what to blame – it’s a mixture of me staying up later doing blog stuff or reading, being at the peak of training and probably flooded with cortisol, and mentally just not being in “sleep mode” since I know I have to wake up at 5 every morning to get my runs in.
I am making a PROMISE to myself (you know how I feel about those) that after running NYC I will
allow force myself to sleep as much as I can for at least a week. The idea sounds great now, but I know I’ll resist it because that’s just how I roll. I’m not a sleeper! But the past few days, since my 22 miler, I’ve been feeling the effects, and I know I need to take the fatigue seriously.
3.) I’m NOT really thinking about my birthday, which is one week before the marathon.
Except I am, because I just thought about it 🙂 What I’m really thinking about related to my birthday is typical of all of my thinking and it’s ridiculous.
It starts out innocently, with the idea to make a special birthday dessert recipe to celebrate (not original) and essentially ends with me fixated on making something probably too elaborate with the purpose of making my birthday as stressful for me as I possibly can 😉
Because I’m me, and my birthday is all about celebrating ME! It’s my birthday and I’ll put unnecessary pressure on myself if I want to, I guess.
I’m not complaining and I’m not really all that “into” my birthday to begin with. Expectations – just another one of my ongoing issues!
4.) I’m thinking about sausage, and don’t you know it!
This time though, it’s all about my old recipe for homemade breakfast sausage patties that I revived yesterday and then inhaled, with some roasted butternut squash and eggs. SO GOOD!
5.) I’m thinking about how I don’t feel like I’m tapering yet, probably because it’s the last 2 weeks (and really 1 week) when running really cuts down.
I’m still basically of sound mind, and no ghost pains, which is odd for me. I must be super distracted by social media and sausage to not feel like I’m tapering yet.
There’s still plenty of time to lose it and lose it completely, I do not doubt!
What’s on your mind this week?
Thoughts/feelings on your birthday?